Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Worried Wanda

I have been waiting three weeks for my PT scan, that will determine if I go forward with my stem cell transplant or continue with chemo because the cancer hasn't disappeared yet. The day has finally come! Tomorrow I get my scan.
I have been so worried about this scan. Some days I feel no lump in my neck, just a smooth surface where cancer once lived. Other days my neck flares up and cancer says "Hello! I'm BACK!" and I feel a mass once again. It's scaring me! The anxiety is horrible, and my stomach keeps turning. I am not sure if the flare ups are because I am extremely stressed or it really hasn't gone away. I want to be on the right track so badly! I just want to hear those two words, "cancer free!"